Random Thoughts

I went out last night with a friend and it was fucking weird. Being in a town where people go to the same club and same bars at the same time every week is strange and only brings drama and interesting situations. At least it wasn't my drama but I felt like I was high key in a reality show. Sometimes my life doesn't feel real. 

I've been reading a lot of cookbooks and chef biographies lately and it makes me miss working in a resturant. I miss the money, free food, free alcohol, free drugs and the close but disfunctional family. It's truly has shaped me. Before I worked in a resturant I was a timid shy girl who was scared of the world. I'm still scared but I'm more willing to go for what I want.

I never went into detail of it, I may have mentioned that I got into a really bad accident about a year ago. Well I got hit by a car as a pedestrian (pretty fucking rough) I finally got my settlement and I'm just going to spend it on traveling and eating good food. I don't know if that's responsible but it's all I want from life.

The boys I get mixed with are all fucking Brazy and I don't know what I'm doing or what to do. All I know is I feel like monogamy is a fucking lie that society tries to feed us.

Also I'm in love with Young Thug's mixtape cover. I love him because he basically doesn't give a fuck about rap always trying to press hyper masculinity.