Random Thoughts

You know my friend gave me the best advice the other day and if you knew my friend it's something you wouldn't expect. I was talking to her about my man friend and how I felt. She basically told me to stop overthinking, for once. To enjoy the moment and enjoy what I have. I can't control my feelings and my future so just hope for the best. That's where I'm with that. 

I do feel kinda weird because all our coworkers now know we are dating. It's kinda weird and I get teased and at least inside I turn red.

I watched sausage party and I don't know how I feel about it still. Part of me wasn't paying attention and part of me was actually offended. I guess I would give it a 4/10.

I really miss San Francisco and I really miss my friends. I feel like San Francisco is an ex boyfriend I need to get over though.

I leave to Texas next month for two weeks and I finally get to see my black side of the family. It's been probably seven or eight years since I've seen them. It's been a long time.

I hate/love my coworkers. I've been struggling a little bit since my trips to Portland and Vegas and some of my coworkers have bought me lunch and it's really sweet. But on the other spectrum o never had a coworker someone my equal (actually if I'm being honest I'm a little higher than he is) speak to me so low and make me feel so disrespected. It was so bad that a manager had to get involved and he had to apologize to me. Also I never been so criticized so much for not wanting to get married. Yes I like. The idea of marriage but I don't think it's realistic, at least for me. The idea of staying with one person when you connect to a bunch of different people every day is fucking bizarre. I don't think I could be polyamorous but the idea of forever is fucking wild.