I really don't appreciate 99.9% of my moms side of the family. They are all bunch of bullies and to be honest a lot of them treat me like shit unless something extreme happens like me getting hit by a car.
I was hoping there would be alcohol around to make this situation bareable. There is no alcohol.
Okay so I think I'm being a little dramatic but I'm fucking bitter they have done some pretty shitty things and I honestly don't think I'll forgive them for. They haven't been there for the important parts of my life other than me getting hit by a car and I can't remember the last time they even called to say Happy Birthday. My aunt Eva though has a good heart and she was there when I was in extreme need. She's also bearable to be around. I feel really bad because she got played like an old fucking Nintendo 64.
My family keeps trying to bring me into the conversation and they know I'm seriously unhappy to be here. I wish I was better at hiding my discontent for them.
All I've wanted to be honest was to have a better relationship with them but I just don't think it's possible. I think I'm okay with just keeping them on the back burner of my mind for the rest of my life. No matter how shitty it sounds.
I really wish I was back in Tennessee just worrying what I would see or do next and it was simple and I was kinda in love and got to be in bed with a cute boy. Life sucks my dude but is also rad at the same time.
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