Random Thoughts

I like being self aware and being honest with myself. It's nice and it isn't exhausting. I'm still pretty bad because I'm ignoring people and it's pretty selfish. It's a quality I need to change and deal with. I don't like confrontation but being honest is the best thing to do.

I went out the other night with a few coworkers. I have had this weird crush on one of my coworkers for awhile and I told him that night. The weird thing is he said he had one too. Like I know I'm not going to see him for a few days and I don't want to even deal with it lmfao.

I had a really long conversation with my friend about this election and this Hilary vs Trump. They both scare me and I have heard a lot of arguments about Hilary. being not a lesser of two evils but a different kind of evil. I think for awhile I believed that. I'm also a crazy liberal who doesn't believe in war or intervention in other countries even for "good" causes. Also I have more of intersectional feminist type view and I have to be honest I do look down on other feminist who don't have the same views (including men issues, race, and trans issues) I like talking to him though because I'm extreme left and he shows me the importance of balance and why she is the lesser of two evils (not a blantant racist and abortion stance)

Balance is a good thing to have and I sometimes forget it.

I'm excited about Portland and I need to plan more things other than just going like I did in Nashville. Although not planning anything for Nashville went suprising well. I miss Nashville a lot.

I complain that I hate my coworkers a lot but they look after me. My HR manager sent me a vegan recipe through work email. My supervisor is sending me some info backpacking as a vegan. They just piss me off at work.

Love is hell of a drug and what is it exactly? Once you fall out of love where does it go? Can you love the same twice?