Shoot your shot 2016

I told myself next time I saw my crush/infatuation I was going to ask for his number. I saw him and I bitched out. Why am I shy around guys I actually like? Also what if he has a girlfriend? then I look hella stupid. Also I don't want to ask hey do you have a girlfriend flat out because that's weird and my intentions are just out there. I need to be a bit more ballsy though. I don't know how guys do it. I mean I've asked a guy out and I've been rejected but you know it's always hard it never gets easier. I've been listening to a lot of podcasts lately and last night I was listening to this one by Strangers and how people tend to like the idea of you and not really you. I do this a lot. The last guy I dated I REALLY liked him for reasons I still don't understand. When I started to go out with him, not so much. But isn't that the point of dating? First is attraction then comes everything else? Fuck I feel like I never will get this dating thing right.